Mood swings and the equanimity.

All is fine and serene. The serenity is surpassing. A serenity in totality. Internal and external. You consecrate all the things you have done and your own self.

We tend to have a cycle of emotions. And a prime emotion that is a seed to a purpose in life is the drive, what we so stoically term as motivation. The drive changes and occurs as a pattern, as a cycle. We will agree that we have high days and low days.

And a high day is when you are all pumped and ready for any challenges. To put it a little pessimistically, I would say, you are naughty. A low day is when you don’t find a purpose for things that you had pursued like hell.

And what particularly interests me is the blend of these, an equilibrium, the serenity which prompted me to write this.

I chose to write this on such a day of serenity (By serenity I am not talking about environment or anything physiological). My language, if you had noticed is quite flat in tone, like a documentary running. I did not smile much. Or rather I am more to myself. I contemplate many things in life and all my positives get highlighted with a neat emphasis on a future perseverance of even better goals. I don’t get astonished. It’s a 'what else can happen in life now' attitude.

It’s not dejection, but a sense of completion. A sense of gratification and an even matured outlook that all such completion is a beginning and the road ahead doesn’t fear you. These times are like pausing a play and contemplating on what and all happened till now. And coincidentally, you also get the same feelings as in play. You might know how would all these end and don’t fear the same.

I just am very monomaniac and don't differentiate anything. Rain is same as a mundane bus trip. A friend and a foe the same. and so on. Something to do with maturity? Ok let’s now think about this.

How do such states of mind get triggered? Is it potentially useful?

For me, it triggered by a movie. It was about terrorism. And a complex character trying to blow up a terrorist action. He talks about faith. And any intellectual stimulation could be a pre-cursor. Maybe.
Or.
Many of us have complex feelings. How often have we thought that we have a unique feeling about a person? That feel could have arisen out of a mixture of both rational reasoning and unavoidable negative emotions like envy, pride etc. Such unique feelings when found to be common with someone, the sheer joy of having that commonality and the relieving of guilt is huge. That can give you all the happiness you need.
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When one has an overdose of psychological attention or if one is confronted with a situation that warrants the circumvention of such a need, then this serenity sets in.

And now about the usefulness.

A shocking study revealed that you think clearly, when you are sad. Such a reasoning would never be accepted consciously. But try to think of some new idea when you are sad. Or in a way when you are serene.

Bright ideas come in the restroom or bathroom or en-route you usual commute. And things that are mundane and those that you are putting up with no option leads to this serenity or sadness to varying degrees. And bright ideas pop up then. Or you may take it as a relief of all responsibilities and an effort to rehabilitate yourself seeking better responsibilities either challenging or otherwise that brings about this serenity. Or you may also take it as loneliness. But loneliness leads to sadness. Absolving responsibilities is definitely a sad thing and so is a serene mood.

You may consider this reading as a waste of time. But I have made many important decisions when I was serene.

Or have I simply spoken about being equanimous?

No idea. I don’t take the moral responsibility to please the reader, because I am in a serene mood.

Social responsibility?

So why is social concern a humbug? Today, many talk about the uplifting of the poor and a bottom-up approach. The concern for the poor and the disadvantaged is high and omnipresent. But practically speaking, such a concern may be unwarranted. I will try and reason out why.

For all those who are familiar with Darwin's natural selection theory, it’s a tacit agreement that life on earth has to follow the process of 'survival of the fittest'. The ecology ensures that only a percentage of life can survive and go on to the next generation. A stoic and unemotional thought process reflects that this is in fact something that is healthy.

In life, we tend to have many options. Of those many options, a few are stale or at least not practical. Of the remaining, based on perceptions, options are rated and chosen. The process of natural selection can be thought on similar lines. Life is born as both competent and otherwise. The worst creations die out easily and the rest stay on. And depending on the systems' perception, the ratings of life differ.

Now, don’t take me capitalistic. Life should take its course of natural selection. Only species that are ready to be competent and ready to put in efforts can survive. That ensures a stronger earth. So why at all wealth should be divided amongst the undeserved? Why at all should the person who conceived all the idea of an enterprise take the wealth he had created? Rightfully speaking, he is the mastermind of the actual enterprise.

And coming back to what I was saying, practically speaking, ‘survival of the fittest’ is how the world works and so such deliberate concern for the disadvantaged is not warranted.

Take the case of a crying baby. When you start petting her, you are actually spoiling her. Let the butterfly fly out of its cocoon. Agreed, one generation suffers. But the next flourishes. Only such determined survival brings the earth fate to a neat destiny.

I too understand the pain of survival. But I have survived.

(My) God - An Explanation.

Rational thinking has never been refuted. Even religious people are soundly logical. But the rationality in not allowing the questioning of certain rationally unexplainable things is irrational. To put it simple, we are not allowed to question God (certain rationally unexplainable things). The genesis of atheism can be traced hence. My quest to understand God began.

Let’s assume for the time being that rational thinking is rational in the real sense. As such human have accepted rational thinking as logical and straight forward and this has been reasonable. With this assumption let’s take in what follows.

Man is a social animal having physiological and psychological needs. Physiological needs are simply satiated by the interaction of man with physical elements. (Man eats food when hungry). On the other hand, psychological needs are met only by other people having a similar deficiency. The worst thing is, just like physiological needs, psychological needs have to be replenished time and again.

When physiological needs are not met we die. And when psychological needs aren't met we make them to be met or others still live on dejected.

And for the second class of people God was born. An awe and a blind faith on which you can rely. You start believing that there is someone who is helping you. So you believe and it happens. This can’t be refuted because of Murphy's Law, which states that anything that can’t happen won’t happen.

Just think.

Blind faith is powerful. The very fact that there are diverse religions proves that it’s all about faith. There can’t be so many Gods. The one thing that’s common to all religion is that all the followers believe. One may argue that we give a form to God since He is invincible, so what. That’s the sole reason why I am claiming that it’s a concept when one person, one day, dejected of his psychological deficiency had this illusion of a great awe in a mountain where he decided to build something what we call as a temple to prove the point that there is something that can heal the deficiency.

Think a little bit further.

A friend of mine said that she is comforted by a stair. Don’t get confused. It’s the physical support that she has got that has lead to some gratification. While studying, try lean against a wall and study. You will find yourself studying for longer hours without distraction. So in that way, religion is a form of advanced stroking.

And so when a few people found that a super power existed, they convinced others too (who drew psychological strength from the aura) and so was born religion. And so was born my atheism.

And now not all people like all others. This disparity depending on physiological patterns (like eating habits) led to many religions.

And so if I can understand that the concept of blind faith is so powerful, then why am I not forsaking my silly rationality for better gains? I like the concept of God per se. Bhagavat Gita says that people who question God are Satans. And this Satan has understood God. The beauty of the concept of God lies in its 'awe' factor. And only inconceivable and non-understandable things are awe-inspiring. And now that I understand that all this is a fallacy (I respect others’ belief and I hope that I am not demeaning), I am unable to draw the same amount of inspiration as a blind believer.

And so logically I am helpless. My God is somewhere else. And now I want to become religious by the same above reasoning .

Rationality has its price.

I would love your comments. :)